-_-.sometimes I feel like I DONT want to die but i just don't be having the energy to continue "existing"...ya know? not trying to claim anything on me but...sometimes I can't figure out if I need a hug, a slap, or to get ran over by a bus.maybe all three.It's just that I don't like many things like that it's sorta of like corona and quarantine changed me.I have always been shy but that shyness turned into me being an introvert...and for a while I didn't mind staying at home doing online school.I was failing but didn't care as long as I didn't have to go back to school...that would mean to me that I would have to start all over and meet my friends all over again.then I would be lonely...and no one would look me.I would have rather failed my grade than to go back to school.then when I cry or feel sad people close to me are all like "Don't cry don't feel down" and i am just like oh yes why didn't I think of that dam. n it! plus I over think a lot worrying and come up with fake scenarios that most likely will never happen in my head either to bully my self or to be prepared for the impossible.I am a loving person but just watch out cuz I come with a dash of anxiety.fr I be having so much trust issues I don't even trust the "camera off" button.And one more thing some of you guys can probably relate to when you are with some of your friends and they have some of their other friends come along and you really don't want to talk to any more humans so you walk away feeling like burden...ugh...to sum it up LIFE IS ONE BIG DISAPPOINTMENT.AND I MY PARENTS HAD NO RIGHT LETTING ME BEING BORN WITHOUT MY PERMISSION..i am grateful but gosh its hard sometimes and yall can report me all you want but i spilled my guts out in this only because I know you guys don't know who I am and can still judge me without really knowing me.

and plz no links do not respond with saying something boring say something meaningful plz...