Why when i stab myself my happy moments in life pop up in my brain

don't stab yourself! u are amazing and have good life ahead of you! just jump over this obstacle and it will get better trust me. have fun and live your life to the fullest. I might not know u but I'm gonna say that you can do anything and you can get through this so pls don't stab yourself! we need u in this world! you can accomplish something in life that you never thought or experience. you can get the best experience of your life if just stay. just think about all the stuff u want to accomplish like going around the world or meeting new people. just don't stab yourself pls. I lost someone bc of that and I don't need another person gone bc of this! so pls! just pls don't do it! u might think that u are unwanted, but u are wanted. just again pls dont!. ...

i belive those are the ones that are under 90 degreese.