It's very sad to hear this. But I want to tell you something Listen very carefully. GiRl, You are beautiful the way you are.. And you are stronger than you think you are!
The first thing that you should do when he cheats on you is give him the freedom to live his own life. The second thing that you can do is.. CRY. yes Im serious.. Cry as much as u want.. remove everything.. that every burden that you have in your heart. They say weak hearted people cry. But do u know what the people who have guts, courage they are the ones to cry. Atleast they are not holding that pain and saying that they are strong. After you are done with that.. Take some time And understand.. What was all this? Love? No it wasnt. For your boy friend it was just a game That he played. And maybe what you call love was just your attachment or just a body need.. I know you'll not accept it. But at some point in future.. You'll know the truth. Don't feel sad. It's Ohk. Life has got to teach you many things. I know you are feeling to end your life or maybe be heartless.. And do the same to others or so on.. But don't do all that. Just be silent. Let the pain go deep into your heart. Let it show you what pain is. Let it show you something that is unknown! Be witness to everything that's happening. Forgive him dear. And be thankful that you knew his other side.
There's obviously something much better and beautiful than this. Maybe you'll find your true love. Who knows. To let the best come in your life, you need to lose the worst. Cheating on your partner is so common that we take it lightly and laugh on and sometimes feel cool about it.. try to hurt the partner or yourself.. In return. Drink, smoke, abuse destroy your life, say love is pain, hate it etc etc. But will never try to see the truth. Never accept the fact that it's his life yes he can cheat you or can be loyal..and the same is yours. That's his choice his freedom. This is a bitter truth. According to me, cheating on someone is the cheapest act that you can do. Anyways.what you can do for now is Put all your energy into something that will make you successful. More beautiful. Healthy. It's just the game of transform of energy. I know it's difficult but You have to do it. Nothing's more important than life. A happy life. It's your journey. Your alone!
One thing that can help you out from all these and take you to another level is MEDITATION. any type of meditation is fine. The more you do it the more clear you get. Trust me, I mean it. Just try doing it for 5 mins. And you will be far away from getting affected by these things. At that point you'll know the real meaning of love. And trust me possession, jealousy, attachment, emotions physical attraction domination.. etc. All this is not love. The first thing love asks for is freedom. And you will experience all this as u go deep into yourself. Your own being. Your own individuality. This is the best opportunity don't miss it. Say thank you to that cheater, don't curse him. It's Ohk. Yes it really is okay! and move on.. Into your own journey. And you will find all your answers!