when im on my dark moods the feeling is so hard its like your mind is stuck in this dark room or this cage locked up and you sometimes have ppl tell you things like dont do it its not worth it or try to stop you from drinking all your grandmas cold whiskey and you cant bc ur locked and its so hard its like a baby trying to say a full sentences but they cant i cry and cry over and over and over when is enough ppl tell me this tell me that but are you even sure if they r even right ? is pain even mean pain anymore ? feels worst then pain now is there even a deeper word ? do my feelings matter? say they do but why do they hurt? so much to say but not enough brain to get it out :(