I had...this question for people who might understand SORRY THIS IS VERY LONG I DON'T REALLY HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO

AND THIS IS IN HEALTH FOR LIKE MENTAL HEALTH CAUSE...MINE IS PRETTY BAD

but on the 16th of Friday i had a crush on one of my friends i won't say his real name so lets call him Apollo. Apollo and i were close and i would talk to him when i am upset or just wanting to talk to him and i started developing feelings for him and i was nervous cause that's how most people are when they want to tell someone they like them so i was talking to one of my friends from my school and how i can tell him she was hyping me up going you can do it you got this so...on Saturday the 17th i was going to tell him he was in a Xbox party with someone but they were feeding there pet snake so i had enough time but...i didn't really get to say it because before i was going to tell him Apollo said i just wanted to get this out and the person in the party was his..girlfriend i couldn't really say anything else after that so after we talked for abit i left and i don't know how to feel better i don't really cry from stuff like that i hold it back but i don't really know what's the best way to feel better or what do you do to feel better cause i've been heart broken 9 times and i dont know like will i ever find love?(AND AGAIN sorry this is really long i don't really have anyone else to talk to about this)