fear... messes me up everything spinning can't see clear... do I listen to my head, the devil he don't want me here... keep you near, can't fix me cuz I'm broken far beyond compare... I don't give a dayum who I have I'm only happy if you there... try not to dwell on the past just pretend that I don't care... whether I'm in the clouds or not I still see him everywhere... I'm in love, things are never going back to how I was... need the buzz... it's scary I like feeling pain just because... good enough? did what I said although he tried to call my bluff... I can't tell them what's the move so I'm good at faking stuff, acting tough... merely existing and not living... devil on my shoulder got me spinning, he know he pulling me down, yes he's winning... yea the pain it got him grinning... ask if I'm fine do I lie? ain't no secrets in my eyes, pour out emotions when I cry... I swear I do, I really try... but I wonder if I died, then will he be satisfied?