Diary entry about winning a prize and that prize is flight in a hot air balloon

Dear diary,

Wednesday 20th January, today i entered a contest for fun... well lets be honest my friends were pushing me to join it because they wanted the ultimate prize which was a free flight in a hot air balloon, it may sound like an amazing opportunity but i don't like stuff like this i never have but i enter for my friends, and unluckily i wont the prize but i'm contemplating weather to tell anyone or to just throw the tickets away for someone else who's lucky to find them. Oh my god am i seriously thinking of throwing a big chance for my friends to have a once in a lifetime experience out the window? I'm an idiot what an idiot why would i even consider that?

Explanation: I'm swamped with work for school at the moment so it isn't the best entry and my weakness is English but i tried hope it helps or gives you a budge :)

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