Julie, don't regret that you didn't spend enough time with her. What matters is that you were there for her in the first place. You're always going to think stuff like this, but it's never going to help. It's ok if you don't feel good. That's normal all you have to do is remember the good times you had with her. All the laughs and good moments you spent together when she was healthy. The way she loved you and the way you loved her. In the end, all that matters is that you were there for each other. What matters is that you care for her. That you love her and she loves you too. You don't have to carry this burden by yourself, all of us (Lily, Para and I) are always here when you need to vent. Obviously, I'm the best for you to vent things at since I give such great advice and comfort tho :>> I'm sure your grandma loves you. That's what matters. -you know who I am