I dont know what to do anymore i feel like in losing interest in everything
life, sports, family, friends, and i even lost the one i wanted to be with my whole life.
i was told to move on but i cant.
hes always there in my head, sometimes in a bad way tho.
is it that i miss my e. x or i think i like someone else but its too soon.
i look back and me and his messages and notice its all gone.
the one thing i lived for, fought for, its all gone now.
i try my hardest to forget but then your in my notifications.
almost like you try to make me remember you.
i honestly never meant to ruin everything we had.
i dont know what to do with life anymore.
im back to being s. u.i. c.i. d.a. l.
c. u.t. t.i. n.g, s. m.o. k.i. n.g, v. a.p. i.n. g, d. r.i. n.k. i.n. g, and you were the only one keeping me away from all of that.
i havent eaten full meals because i remember the da. tes we had planned out.
i cant even remember the last time that me and him talked, it was the worst day of my life though.
may 12th was the day we bro. ke up.
i cant begin to think he already has moved on, or it seems like it.
i wonder if me and him were too good to be true.
maybe we werent meant for eachother.
maybe i should clear myself from him because it hu. rts.
maybe he meant to h. u.r. t me the whole time.
maybe i was just a silly little game for him.